“Won’t you sit with me in the top of a magnolia tree?"

It’s been a really long time since that night. Over a year actually. We served together with a wonderful group of people for two years and all we were was friends. Passing each other in the hallways with friendly hellos. I never thought it would ever be different. Until that one night in May. It’s honestly one of my favorite memories of high school. Why? Because that night I began to look at things in a completely different perspective..and I have you to thank for that. I don’t know what exactly what it was that made everything click.. Maybe it was the two hour water gun fight. Maybe it was making water balloons with you. Maybe it was you trying to help me get over one of my biggest fears. I know for a fact though that everything that night led to us sitting in the top of that tree for quite a long time. That’s when things began to change. When you put your arm around me and told me  “I’m here for you.” And kept it there. I know that you felt it, too even if you deny it now. Right then I realized how truly wonderful of a person you are and how thankful I am that you were placed in my life for that amount of time. But time has changed, you have already begun that exciting chapter in your life and in a short amount of time I’ll be embarking on this next awesome chapter of my life. And all I know is every single time I have seen you since then, my heart drops to my stomach. I don’t know what to say to you when we talk just because I’m that nervous of the possibility of what may happen in the minutes to come. Your smile gets me every time.. You are one of the most humble guys I have ever met. But the best thing about you, you love the Lord with every inch of your heart, and to me, that’s the most attractive thing in a guy. All this time I have never told you any of this, because I have never had the guts. But I’ve realized what do I have to lose? You know who you are, and I hope you realize that if you ever do read this, this was really hard and it completely came from my heart. Everything happens for a reason.

there's a first for everything

well here goes nothing. i'm not very good at expressing how i really feel in the heat of the moment. i usually leave thinking "oh, i should've said that" or "oh, i should've done this" and so on and so forth. that's why i'm doing this, to let out everything, and not to worry about holding anything back. to just be me. you can take it or leave it, your opinion doesn't matter in the long run. enjoy :)